Hi TeenCP!! I’m so excited to be back and writing about my latest excitement. I am now finishing up the final months of my freshman year of college and have been introduced to the medical opportunity I’ve always dreamed of!
All my life, I was told that I had Spastic Monoplegia (a.k.a tight muscles only in my left leg, complete with a limp, and balance problems that were given to me shortly after I was born) But a few weeks ago when I visited with a new surgeon, I was given a new look into really how my leg muscles were moving. It has been my goal in the past few years to reach my full potential physically and now, I was finally getting what I saw as the chance of a lifetime. Back in January, I did a “Gait Analysis” at a special lab in New York City. From this, the doctor would be able to see how exactly my muscles move and then decide what course of action to take so I can walk as well as possible That day was actually pretty cool-therapists covered my entire body in little ball-shaped sensors and used 3-D Motion Capture cameras to film me as I walked back and forth across the room. It was unlike anything I’ve ever done before, and what was even more awesome was the fact that I was utilizing the same basic technology that filmmakers use to shoot movies like The Polar Express. (Fun Fact: That’s why Tom Hanks looks extremely similar to his animated character!) As it turns out from the results of the gait analysis, my Cerebral Palsy can actually be considered “asymmetrically diplegic” because my right hamstrings an adductors are also abnormally tight. It was definitely a shock to have my diagnosis changed a bit after 19 years, but to be honest, it didn’t really bother me! Just hearing that a doctor could help me walk better was basically some of the best news of my entire life. Yes, I am actually excited about the surgery that I will be having at the end of May.
For the sake of keeping things “even” both of my legs will be operated on. My hamstrings and adductors will be released, meaning the doctor will “snip” them allowing them to relax. Together, this will not only give me better flexibility, but also prevent “scissor gait” and the turning in of my knee on my left side. Also, my left achilles tendon will be lengthened (by cutting the outer sheath of the muscle, allowing the tendon to expand) and this will help me walk “heel-toe” with a more regular stride. In total, five of my leg muscles are going to be operated on, and surprisingly I will be leaving the hospital with the ability to walk (using a walker), a short cast on my left leg, and splints to wear at night while I sleep. There’s going to be lots of Physical Therapy involved (of course) but I look at the process with a “no pain, no gain mindset” This Jersey Girl is hoping to be back on the beach as soon as I get my cast off…even if it means trudging through the sand with that new walker of mine! (How’s THAT for PT??) Also, I’m hoping to be able to eventually go ice-skating and zip-lining (two things I’ve never been able to do but have always hoped to try) once I gain my strength back! I like being able to look forward getting on the rink at Rockefeller Center or climbing to the top of a tree then flying through the air. It may sound a little crazy, but no one ever said that when you have CP, you can’t do these things!!
Since I’ve gotten the news that I’m finally able to have all of this surgery, I’ve done a ton of reflecting. How are you supposed to react when the thing you’ve dreamed about your entire life suddenly comes true? I now feel this awesome new sense of confidence and readiness to take take control of my body that I hadn’t necessarily recognized during my high-school years, and I think that’s one of the reasons that I’m not anxious about what’s in store for me. Maybe to those of you who have gone through this process before, I could be sounding slightly naive…but I can’t imagine being afraid of a medical journey that basically encompasses all I’ve ever wanted for myself. One of my favorite quotes is, “Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but doesn’t get you anywhere.” I know that with all the support I have from my family and friends, lots of determination and a couple of chocolate milkshakes, I’ll be able to conquer this journey and come out not only feeling stronger physically, but mentally as well. Throughout my teenage years, I’ve learned that the difference in how you feel about yourself and your future all depends on how you look at things. More than that, I’ve been re-inspired to never lose faith that everything will fall into place. Just thinking about the day when I’m completely finished with my rehab and walking in a brand new way gives me butterflies-it is all the motivation I need!!!
Keep on keepin on guys!! 🙂